The Journey Begins, pt.2

A discussion at the party last Sat also got me started on my path in the Lifestyle. Ms S. mentioned a new group forming to support a local Leather Community. Now, being in a BDSM community, you hear about the Leather Community from time to time but I’ve never delved that much into it. I’ve always felt it’s more a part of the gay BDSM lifestylers and not me. I learned that, yes, it was started by gay men but it has explanded out from there. She went on to talk about its history and a little about the being in the Leather Community.

This discussion interested me because I am to the point where I need to decide if I am going to just sit back and watch the BDSM Community or step up and become part of it. People would say I already am part of it just being there, but I don’t feel that way. Hard for me to say why but part of it has to do with my lack of experience and my lack of knowledge in the lifestyle that has brought about a lack of confidence in what I may already know.

The biggest reason for me to make a decision is that my girl is coming down in Sept finally. She is so much more experienced than I am. I know I can’t get to her level by the time she gets here but I would like to have some basics down when I meet her. I’ve discussed this with her and she is fine with going slow and having a light play session but I still feel like I need to give her a little more.

The other reason why I need to go forward is I’ve started work on a poly Lifestyle family with dani as my first. She’s helping me create my own training manual and it has helped me decide what type of slave I want to train. But I still have doubts as to if I am fully qualified even though she says I’m more qualified than I give myself.

Ms. S talked about in the Leather Community you have to earn your leather through constant practice and study. I feel that I need to earn my title of Master and Head of House. I don’t know the path I am going to take to do that, though. I need to learn more about the Leather Community to see if it is right for me or if I need to get an individual mentor to show me the way. I just now I need to start now, if not for me, then for dani.