T minus 30 days

30 days until danielle gets here. 30 days to get final preparations set. Only 30 days to get myself ready for her arrival. I’m excited it’s so close but I am also worried that it’s so close.

I feel like I have so much to do and yet, I don’t think I have that much. It’s just that the stuff I need to do take time, they are things I can just do and move on. I need to triple my efforts on my lifestyle practicing, I need to get at least one more section finished on her training manual and work on both losing weight and starting my Buddhist practice again. I know I’m not going to lose 30 pounds before she gets here but I do need to start. And really, that’s the biggest thing I need to do: just start.

I can talk all I want about doing something but if I don’t just start, then where does all that talking get me? So, it starts tomorrow. I will get up and begin my Buddhist practice again. I will pull out what I have of the manual so far and start moving forward. I will start walking again this week. I will begin practicing my flogging with more dilligence. I will just start.